MUSIC HIGHLIGHTS: home in the bay edition
polo & pan ---- thank u rachel nguyen's cool friend group, im obSESSED
2nd street by natalie green
better off by sjowgren
girl ultra ---- latina r&b queen holy her voice is so good, her songs, and its all in spanish i... die
luz apaga by ozuna
exotigaz EP by A.CHAL ----- speaking of more spanish-speaking artists.... this ep is fire
bad bunny ----- MIA is a bop and solo de mi is pioneering emo reggaeton and his album is out!
january by verzache
tobi lou and the juice by tobi lou ----- wtf i slept on this!!! every track is incredible and that zack villere feature fk!!!
2018 IN YEAR END LISTS
ok i already made a doc for albums n artists
isle of dogs
sorry to bother you
crazy rich asians
to all the boys
(strictly ones i tried for the first time in 2018)
we have noodles
everson royce bar
wolf & crane
dan sung sa
uncle boons sister
death & co
night 3: "dear god, ...... you don't have any agency over this do you?"
night 4: "dear god, ...... you don't exist do you?"
i think about that sometimes though, how easily we fell back into everything that night. it was like nothing had happened. it was like we didn't have those incredibly hard and long talks, like we didn't not talk to each other for a month and a half while still in the same vicinity.... we picked up right where we had left off.
sometimes i think i miss you, and want to text you about random shit like music
but im not sure if im supposed to let that just pass
one thing for sure is it doesnt feel like we're friends, like you said you wanted to be, like we said we'd try to be
i don't feel like i can just talk to you whenever, or that you want to talk to me
can we be friends?
can we even talk about this?
i dont know how to bring it up
and if i should just pretend you don't exist anymore once and for all
re: social anxiety cc eighth grade
everyone goes through more or less the same things in life. when i think about the major life events ahead of me, i think about how hard it's going to be. but also how every human takes on these same endeavors to some extent. but some ppl have a harder time living than others. the simple things are harder for them to get through. you know those ppl you know that never seem to struggle too hard with their own minds or selves? i know ur not supposed to assume that they dont have their own stuff going on, but im almost absolutely certain that their day to day is different from mine. its the fundamental things, the mundane day to day things that dont seem lmike they should be a problem, that are harder for some ppl to do, that makes life overall more cumbersome for them. everyones lives are cumbersome. our nature or biology or manufactured society make it so. but for some, its more difficult. (again, keep thinking back to that one bojack ep - "how do ppl... live?")
"im surprised u followed my film acct. didnt rly expect that support from u"
"... y would u say that"
"uhhh idk like unresolved trauma / wounds from our past???? :DDDD"
none of these wounds have fully healed. (when will they fully heal?)
thats not to say that finally being in a realtionship would or could heal them tho.